Weird. I suddenly feel an urge to write an essay...

Friendship And Love

The clock was ticking with a constant beat. I lay on my bed, waiting for the grip of slumber to save me from my very own thoughts which were darting from the past to the future. The moonlight, ever so beautiful, seemed to mock at my pathetic state as it shone through the crystal clear windows. I had never imagined myself landing into such a state of dispersion. I hated how I felt. I hated myself, but I don't know why. Ever since that day, my life, like a speck of dust, was picked up by the winds of time and was blown along with them mercilessly. Time was going too hurriedly, while my body and soul were always lagging behind...

I closed my eyes, expecting darkness to engulf my world. "Yes, fall asleep." I whispered to myself. No, something worse than darkness came uninvited. Moments of elation and misery came flooding in. These mixed feelings were meandering about my useless brain which could not control itself. My heart, now numbed by the frost in my life, was tirelessly churning out sadness in my blood via my veins. How I wished it could just stop beating and just let me be free...

Where did those days of exultation go to? Where? Come back. Please, just come back to me.

A thin line borders the two regions of love and friendship. Distinct words in a dictionary, but like a pair of twins, they come to exist in this world together. Can we love our friends? Can we be-friend with our lovers or our ex-lovers? Why not? I dare say I love every single one of my close friends. You would never know when the God of Death would snap his fingers. Yes, it is that easy. Anything can happen in a split second. That is also why, I've learned to treasure everyone around me. I don't want the same scenario to happen like how it did with my close friend.

"I love you, and I always do, Wrixxie."

Confusion surfaces when things are shrouded by the lack of clarity. The mist only gets thicker, and thicker. "Breathing" might even be difficult, to the extent that one would simply just give up, and step out. Only when one comes to clear matters up will the mist fade. So, why the hesitation? Is the sanctity of friendship over-rated? Is it really that worthless? I don't know. I really don't. All I know is, no one comes to your life simply just by sheer luck.

Life is like a team game. When we've just joined the game as new players, we are guided by our parents on the rules of the game. We are taught how to play this game. The tutorial, however, never ends even when we ourselves become tutors of the game. Simply put, they are our lifetime "guidebook" that we are indebted to. However, here is an essential trick to the game. We can find companions and entrust our games in their hands. Not totally, but wholeheartedly. We believe in them, have faith in them, and help them with their game as well. From now onwards, the games are intertwined with one another. Companions come in different forms. They can be our friends, our lovers, our teachers, our family members, and even anyone who plays the game as well. Without them, the game loses its meaning and no matter how you play the game, you will never win the game alone.

Now, I just wish all of my friends and family members are happy with their lives. With or without me, it doesn't matter. Love exists in individual and various forms. For now, for me, it just exists in two forms - love for my friends and love for my family. That's all. This desensitized heart of mine, has no room for a lover now.

My eyelids, as heavy as my feelings, exerted its weight on me. I couldn't open my eyes. Yes, take me away. Yes, let dawn come...


-Written By Thong Ming Cong
-Dedicated To: Wrixon and all of my friends

Yup, that took me about an hour. Somewhat like a mirror of my life situation now. I feel so fortunate I have my "bros" in my life. Really love you guys. (:


Take care.