My cauldron of sorrow.

This, place, shall be where I pour out all my unhappiness. About how many people visits here, I don't really bother.

It's 3.05am now. My life feels so empty all of a sudden. I need someone to talk to. Two of my best friends are deep in slumber...and another significant person in my life as well. Boys don't cry, well, who said that? Fuck him. God's been making my life jammed with many events, big or small, but, all are just as impact-ful. A friend of mine just passed away recently. It's the first time I cried because of a boy. It's the longest time I cried. It's also the dawn of a new life...

"Love your loved ones." Although everyone knows it at heart, but no actions are taken. When they are really gone, we regret not spending more time with them. Because we know, we can only see them somewhere at night, the time when we are taken on a journey of total unconsciousness. In other words, we'll never see them face to face clearly. Nor hear their breathing. And never to be able to feel their warmth. Never... Now, to me, life's about treasuring the living, and not the un-living. For example, friends over money. I really miss him...

As I type this, I'm holding back my tears. For what reason, I do not know.

God gave us a heart. For what? To pump blood? We might as well just have one made of metal or plastic. The human heart is made of flesh, emotions, feelings, thoughts, love, and even desires. That's what makes distinguish every single one of us by being different in our very own ways. Love brings wonders. Very true, but this phrase is missing out on other things... *sigh.

Can I bring you back your smile, my silly girl?

8th of November, my grandpa's birthday. The only event which pulled my day up from the depths of "The Pits". I brought him a soup to drink, and I could see that he was really elated. At that moment, I felt just as happy as well, looking at him smiling while drinking it. Maybe, love really links two souls from different bodies together, such that both are able to feel the same way as the other, regardless of the distance. This applies to all kinds of love, especially, love between the male and female sex.

How can I be all right when you're like that?

All right, it's bed time I guess. Sleep cures all illness. A new day is a new start. Treasure your loved ones, as you'll never when they'll leave you...with nothing but only beautiful memories. Goodnight all.



I'll do anything for you to be smiling again...
Sleep well, my darling.